Music, Spirit, Work ?
I have been songwriting since the year 1997.
I started playing guitar in the year 2000.
I started playing in front of people in 2006
I first performed on stage in 2010.
I released my solo album independently in 2011.
My musical journey is my life’s journey. It is my soul, my outlet, my savior, my failure, my success, my fulfillment. Music is my harshest and kindest, constant friend. It’s not always there for me, but even its absence is a lesson, Music knows when to reward me with affirmation and when to let me sink deeper into my emotions. I wish you all a friend like mine.
Recently I’ve heard people’s opinions regarding what a musician is or should be, I used to believe, like others, that as a musician, I should be totally defined by my music, that I should be All in or nothing at all. I now Disagree. That belief created a rift between me and my music, I felt like a failiure, that I was a disappointment, it was difficult to create and to be motivated, until I came to terms with the fact that music is not all I am, it is a part of who I am, in everything I do.
My relationship with music is a pure one, a personal one, that we sometimes feel the need to share, and sometimes we don’t. It’s just us. There are no expectation here, and that way I know we will always be there for each other. I don’t think this makes me less or more of an artist than the struggling musician next to me in line to Starbucks, living with 5 roommates and singing for anyone who would listen, his sacrifice is valued and admirable, but it is not my journey. I Can live without "making it" but I Can’t live without music.
If I had to define myself, I wouldn't like it, but I guess I would ‘smart Ass’ an answer and call myself an ‘aspiring creator’. A seeker of truth through art and conversation, through observation, through creation, through unique and original action and reaction.
In the moments and periods of time that I am inspired to use my voice, my lyrics and my guitar to reflect my soul, those moments are sparked by some kind of closure, realization of some thought or idea. A bookmark in my life in my spirit, that is complex, it possess simple pleasures, hard work and a natural curiosity, my spirit is flawed and is diverse, The songs I write are a compilation of that spirits journey.
My First on Stage performance :) June 22 2010.